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Everything in my life seems to fall on the right path. Everything is smooth and according to my plan. I should feel good and happy about it but yet I still feel unsatisfied.

I am still in search for other options throughout my life either in career wise, financial and my love life too. I want to make things far better than what I have currently. That is normal I guess.

Many things had happened to me for the past few months, both good and bad. I had been promoted, got an increment, got a second increment, been offered a new job which I declined, been hurt by my loved one, dumped my boyfriend, got back together with him and we ended up discussing about marriage, and so on. It had been few months now with so many ups and downs throughout my life. Whatever it is is has surely make me more matured to live this life. I feel that have learnt a lot from these and it has make me wiser each and every day.

I am proud to say that I am managing my problems more rationally now. No more tantrums or sneaking behind the back any longer. I even feel more confident with myself.

I am confident with my job, confident with the trust my boss given to me, positive with the amount of increment and bonus I have yet to received. I am happy with my friends and I am even certain that my boyfriend won't dump me for another woman. But sadly I am still not sure about him not lying to me though. Well sometimes I do lie to him too. So let skip that part shall we?  :p

Despites all of the mentioned above, such my stable career, I am still looking for another job, more secured job, preferably with a multinational company. I want more challenging job and more money off course. That reminds me, I have a job interview this coming Wednesday with an event company. Wish me luck!

I have start planning for my future. Firstly, I am planning to buy a house. Currently I am looking around for a good and affordable house, an apartment to be precise. So by end of next year or early 2008, hopefully I will have my own apartment.

I am also planning start my own business. At the moment,  I am looking for business courses to attend to, simply to keep myself well-prepared for the business world. I have business plan in mind, just waiting for the right moment and enough capital in hand.

Love life, even though my boyfriend had proposed to me, but I still can't see myself as a wife, and I am scared to live a marriage life and leave what I have now. I do want to get married and have kids of my own, but I am still unsure. I am terrified to be exact. Too many things had happened in my love life. I had been through a lot and thankfully my boyfriend and I managed to sort things out. Actually he managed to gain my trust back, convinced me and make our relationship stronger each day. But I still have doubts, so at the moment, I can only pray and hope for the best.

I really hope I will be able to achieve those things that I mentioned to make my life better. If do so, I definitely will be at ease and feel content.

Btw, I am leaving to Siem Reap, Cambodia this coming weekend. It is a 4 days 3 nights company trip and I am looking forward to it.

Most people are so typical. Especially those "married kinds". When it comes to marriage thingy, urrghh most of them are such a nagger. Gosh, can't you leave me alone and stop nagging? It's not like you'll be going straight to heaven once you've got married. Kalau amalan tak cukup buat apa. Duh!

I have the right to choose my own path. Off course I do want to have my own family. It's just not my time yet.

Can't you guys just be happy and pray for my happiness?

And if ever I am fated to be the second wife. (Although I know I won't choose to be one) Please be supportive and be happy for me.

I'm trying to live my life here and I need you guys to understand. I know it is hard but please.. Try to understand my situation.

I know there are only few people whom truly know in-depth about my current situation. It is hard for me and I'm trying my best to make a wise decision.

Please be supportive.

It is Friday afternoon. As she was busy doing her usual stuff at the office. Suddenly her phone rang. She looked at her phone. She smiled. "It's my love" she whispered happily and picked up the phone. Few minutes later, "I love you too", said she and hung up the phone.

Her expression looked sad. "He won't be coming home tonight" She whispered to herself. He promised to take her out again tonight but he had other important engagements.

Even though they are already a couple, but they haven't been out on a romantic date for quite some time. She's an outdoor person while he is a homie. He prefers to stay at home with her, cuddling on the sofa while watching the television. It's not like she doesn't like the idea of sitting at home and enjoying their little time together. It's just the feels of going out on a romantic date sounds wonderful for her. But she's not complaining. She loved having him around. But he only has a week to spend his precious time with her before he goes back to his life. And the sweet thing is he chose to be with her.

"Well there goes my romantic night together" she sighed. She understands he is torn between his job and her. Tonight, he'll be staying at the hostel, the accommodation which his company provided for him and colleagues for the 2 weeks training. They are having a study group because they had to sit for the final tests the next day. He had skipped few group studies because of her. And now he needs to focus. These tests will determine his promotion at the company for a senior level officer. And she prays for him.

Tomorrow will be the last day for them to spend time together. And she is determined to make the day a sweet and memorable day for both of them.

My numerology potrait is based on my full name and birthdate. This science of numerology thingy offers insight into the personality by assigning numeric values to names and birth dates by calculating numerological values and then interpreting the results.

So here goes mine:

Your Soul Number is SIX.

        Devoted, loving, and sympathetic, your life centers around the well-being of your family and those you love. A happy, harmonious personal life is what you value above all else. You will also find satisfaction in serving those in the outside world, becoming involved in the helping professions, in community service and affairs, or by giving generously of your time and help to your friends.

You are protective, responsible, and conscientious towards those who depend upon you, and you are the ideal mother or father in many ways, though you can be too involved in the lives of your loved ones. Learn to allow family members the freedom and room to make their own choices and mistakes.

        You respond to beauty, and are gifted in the arts. Creating a beautiful garden or home is very satisfying to you.

* Hmmm.. quite accurate.

We are the champions!
We are the champions!
No time for losers..
'Cause we are the champions!!! - Of the world...

It seemed that I can't stop singing the classic rock song from Queen. I've been humming the tunes since early yesterday morning. The music is so uplifting and it has lightened up my day.

Hey don't you guys want to know why the song seemed stuck in my head? Do I need to tell? Well, I think by this time everybody has already knows.

Italy has won the World Cup for the fourth time after beating France 5-3 on penalties.

The Azzurris has done it again. After waiting for 20 years, since 1982 which they've won the world cup, and after all the hard work they managed to lift the Cup again yesterday night for the fourth time.

Yesterday, the Azzurris played fairly well, same goes to the Frenchmen. To be honest I prefer their performance at the semi final where they've beat Germany 2-0. But overall, the game was entirely good.

The first half was dominated by Italy. As usual, their defense is tough to break down. Fabio Cannavaro, the Italian Captain has led the team well even though there were few mishaps such when Matterrazi, the so-called villain had gave away a penalty kick to France on the 7th minute which has made France led the game with 1-0.

But luck is definitely on the Azzurris' side this year. Matterrazi had equalized the game by scoring a beautiful goal from the lovely corner kick by Pirlo at the minute 19th.

It had looked good for France early on and for long periods of the game but as I said earlier luck is on the Italian's side. With Zidane being sent off after a dramatic collision with Matterrazi is the early start of Frenchmen downfall. I didn't see any major contacts between both of them. I guess Matterazi had said something which made Zidane couldn't control his anger and did what he did.

And the mishaps continued with David Trezeguet the cutest Frenchman who failed to score a penalty kick which gave the opportunity for the Azzurris to finish the game wonderfully. Thanks to Fabio Grosso, he had fulfilled the Azzurris dream of lifting the World Cup once again.

Bravo Italia!

I'm not in a good mood today. Everything seemed to fall apart every time I tried to get close to it. Sigh.

I guess it's better for me to stick in being alone instead of trying to make friends with others. People tend to misunderstood me. Sigh.

I really hope Italy will win the World Cup. That would really brighten my day onwards.

The Azzurris will always have my full support.

Let me ask you something. Why most men are jerks? Why? Is it in their nature? To think that they are so bloody brilliant in cheating women but the truth is they are just so damn stupid in doing that.

Or maybe because they have a tiny brain which they hardly even use. Probably they only use it to get laid. 

A friend told me, "Men give love to get sex, and women give sex to get love". As much as I hate it but it is the truth. Sigh.

A warning to jerks out there, don't you ever messed with me. If you dare, I will make your life a living hell! You won't be able to forget me! Even if you try, I will haunt you till your last breath. Believe me, I will go to the extend just to see you suffered and tormented. 

Damn I'm tired.